February 27, 2016
I’m still here! Really, I am. I’ve just been lazy about blogging lately. Mostly busy doing other things. So I’m going to make this sort of a random post to catch you up (in no particular order)…
- My baby (toddler) turned a year and a half on the 21st of this month, which means that I’m still dealing with prolapse symptoms a year and half later BUT I still feel like I’m getting better.
- I feel it in my gut that the next 6 months will show a lot more progress. I’m psyched about that.
- I keep thinking lately how it’s really true that now I’m so often dealing with symptoms that are “just” annoying, instead of one year ago when I did feel like things were falling out (that was truly disturbing and awful).
- I keep wondering how much of my droopy and/or bulgy tissues are really prolapse-related vs. related to how my perineal tissues healed up after being a) stretched out by a baby who took f-o-r-e-v-e-r to come out, b) cut by an episiotomy, c) stitched back together (in the stretched out position keep in mind!), and d) slowly shortening and toning up again.
- It used to be that I’d start my day feeling the “best” right out of bed in the morning (even if the best wasn’t so great). Now it seems like right out of bed in the morning isn’t the best time. I feel better after I’ve been up a while.
- I’m getting better at “adjusting” my pelvic organs into a better position. I have a technique that works for me.
- Chest Up is key! When I stand back up after bending down for something, I do a hard and quick Chest Up! and can feel a difference.
- I think I’m getting my symptoms of bulginess primarily from a) my urethra, which I believe is dropped a bit, and b) a section of lumpy tissue from my episiotomy healing posteriorly that is likely being further pressed on by a mild rectocele.
- OH– and my menstrual cycles are all out of whack at the moment. After getting used to a fairly predictable ~25 day cycle for many months (with an increasingly predictable and cyclical prolapse symptom pattern), I’m now still waiting for my period at day 34, while last month I got a period at day 21.
- I can only be pregnant if my husband’s vasectomy failed, by the way. (Please, no!)
- With the goofy menstrual cycle this month, I seem to be feeling like I’ve had the “fertile” cervical mucus forever and ever without end. Is my body doing a big ramp-up in its fertility before the big crash of menopause? Who knows.
- Skiing is still going good! Telemark skiing is the best. I skied today and it was awesome!
- Today I thought this: I’M in charge of making my mood be completely *unaffected* by the pesky sensations that continue on a daily basis. I was skiing along in peace as I thought this. My mood shall remain positive.
- I need to keep working on getting in my raspberry leaf tea and my gotu kola tea daily. I do think they help. For some reason, though, it’s a chore for me to fix something so simple.
- I need to keep repeating in my head “I am healed” as I fall asleep at night (I’ve gotten out of the habit). I manifest that.
- It occurred to me recently that it’s finally (mercifully) starting to feel like my childbirth trauma is going more and more into the PAST rather than staying fresh and recent in practically the present. Thank goodness!
- The second year of healing is way better than the first, yes indeed!
- It’s really hard on me physically when I have to bend down and pick up a toddler who occasionally fights me by turning into a flaccid noodle. I hate that!
- The more I do the Whole Woman Posture, the better I get at fine tuning it. It’s really something that you have to do for many months (at least for me) in order to get good at it.
- I’m still a work in progress. I tell my toddler to be patient with himself so I must be patient with myself.
- I will continue to blog whenever I feel like it. As much as possible! Until next time…
- Feedback from you, my blog readers…what’s helping to heal you? How are you doing? Share with me…
I am healed.