December 29, 2015
Boy, oh boy…have I gotten out of the habit of regularly blogging or what? Did you even notice? Drop me a comment if you please! Who are you? 😉
Today I’ll just mention that I left a Facebook group within the last week. I left because I realized that staying in a (vegan) pregnancy-related group was NOT helping me heal myself to my fullest potential.
I’m not going to have anymore kids. I don’t plan on getting pregnant again. I’m definitely not giving birth again (HALLELUJAH!).
It does me no good to hang around where I’m continually reminded of everything childbirth related. It hurts me to stay there.
I don’t want to be stuck in the past. I need to move on.
I don’t want to hear about how “great” other womens’ births were. I don’t want to feel those pangs of jealousy. And I feel guilty when I find myself wishing there were more people like me…so that i can feel less alone in this…
It’s horrible because I don’t really want others to suffer. It’s just a “misery loves company” thing, no? Misery isn’t the best word to describe my situation, but it’s how the saying goes…
And so I left. And so I have one less place to go to waste my precious time. Excellent! That gives me some peace!
I have a 16 month old little boy. He is THAT old. He’s no longer inside me. He came out a while ago! He was once a newborn but now he’s not. He’s my baby but he’s really a toddler.
I can LET GO of everything pregnancy- and birth-related. I really can!
I am healed.