Hmm, I’m tired! I worked a 9.5 hour day today. Unlike 3 weeks ago, today I didn’t want to cry.
Actually, both yesterday and today were among my best days to date since I had my baby. Something was noticeably and very obviously different. For a good span of time, I felt…almost normal.
Almost normal means that I felt just the slightest slightest sensation of pressure. It was “barely there.” I felt more “lifted up” internally. I could sense that my pelvic organs were positioned maybe just a couple millimeters (??) into a better position. But a small excursion makes a big improvement in the feeling!
AND– the “almost normal” feeling lasted for a lot longer than I thought it would.
I felt pretty great DESPITE assisting one of my male patients to stand up from his wheelchair fairly early this morning. The encouraging feeling lasted, even as I had to bend down to help one of my female patients with her clothing in the bathroom.
As I continued to do my job– reaching down for wheelchair brakes and helping to roll a back surgery patient over in bed to show the nurses aides how to get her TLSO orthotic on– I did start to feel just a wee bit worse…
BUT it took almost the whole day to “feel it” in a still rather mild way. Do you know how awesome this is?
The next step is for me to maintain this “almost normal” feeling ALL DAY. Today I was clearly challenged by a lot of movements I had to do at work. In between times when I was forced to bend and reach (and yes– do some lifting and pulling!) I tried to quickly get back into posture with my chest lifted.
I really wouldn’t mind having “almost normal” be my “new normal.” But I think I’ll continue to strive for normal normal! I feel tired yet peaceful tonight as I finish this post immediately before I go to bed.
I am healed.