Boxers

July 1, 2016

This is a big deal.

All afternoon I’ve been hanging out at home with boxer shorts on…without wearing underwear underneath.  That’s a definite sign of progress!

Up until even a couple weeks ago I never felt comfortable wearing nothing.  As in– when I get out of the shower and I walk across my bedroom, I’ve always felt really “agape” and “open” and “unsupported”…basically “not good.”

Hence my comfort wearing thong underwear.  I’ve done posts on that in the past, as you will recall.

Something’s been happening in the past couple months.  Healing is still happening.  It takes a long time.  It’s been 22 months + since I had my baby.  My prolapse symptoms have been evolving and changing and getting better little by little and bit by bit.

I measure my progress in funny ways.  Like wearing my boxers without undies.  Hooray!

I feel at peace knowing that…

I am healed!

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Sneakers

June 24, 2016

I’m doing a test here by trying to write a quick post from my phone while riding in the car. Maybe if this works I’ll post more often.

Sneakers: that’s what I’m wearing to work now. I used to prefer Dankos. But then I realized that the Dankos don’t give me much shock absorption in the pelvic region.

Dankos are wonderful if you stand in one place without moving much. I love them for my feet.

But now I need sneakers. Tennis shoes. Whatever you call ’em.

I feel so much better with the “give” of a spongy sole. My pelvic region is much more at peace!

I’m working as an OT in school now, so sneakers give me more mobility to keep up with the kiddos. Plus, my own kid!

I am healed.

Trying on Pants

May 23, 2016

Let’s see if I can get this post done before my 21 month old toddler wakes up!  He’s been sleeping for 2.25 hours already, but 3 hour naps are within his norm (thankfully!)

Yesterday I took the opportunity to shop for some “new” clothes at the thrift store while my boy napped while my husband stayed home.

I started the day feeling great.  I am at the point in my cycle just after ovulation, which seems to be a good time of the month for feeling optimal.  However–

I noticed that with trying on more and more pants by stepping into and out of pant after pant after pant, I started “feeling it.”  As is often the case, that means that I feel a certain hard-to-describe discomfort (really hard to describe, actually) just behind/above my pubic bone.

I think the feeling is somehow coming from my bladder not quite sitting right.  Who knows?  I could go crazy trying to figure this thing out.

But anyway…the point is that I noticed this happening.  Then I started using the seat in the fitting room to sit on while I donned and doffed pant legs.  It’s the little things that make a difference, y’all!

Now I’m conscious about sitting down more here and there while getting dressed at home.

To end this short post (because I am still going to try to blog more often, really!) I shall write down the quote that was the FIRST thing I saw when I popped open my Facebook page today…

It was posted by a page called “Daily Thoughts” and it said:

“Your body’s ability to heal is greater than anyone has permitted you to believe.”

Ahhhh!  PEACE!  TRUTH!

And my boy is just now waking up as I push “publish” (it’s now been 2.75 hours…)

I am healed.

Second Mother’s Day Update

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Oh, my!  I’m getting so bad about posting.  Sorry to anyone who has been nice enough to reach out to me in the past, to tell me that my posts are helpful!

Since my last post I’ve had a lot of ups and downs, honestly!  Ever since I was pregnant I seem to be particularly emotional at times, and I don’t like it.

I’ve had days when I want and do cry.  And I’ve had days strung together when I feel good enough to think that I might someday feel normal again.

Remember my post about thong underwear?  Well, yep, I can’t say enough how much a positive difference such a tiny piece of material makes for me.  It’s crazy.  I just don’t feel the same in my other undies or when I walk naked from shower to bedroom.

Another topic– food.  I’ve been paying close attention to how certain foods affect my prolapse symptoms.  I’ve realized that when my intestines feel more gassy, I feel more symptomatic.  I have a lot of control over managing this, which gives me peace!  I may elaborate on this on a future post.

Weeding.  This week I got out in the yard again for the first time in a long time.  The last time I did some weeding was when I was ?? months postpartum and feeling a lot worse than I do now.  Seasonal activities are great markers of my progress.  What a difference!

Out skating…again!  Yesterday I was rollerblading.  It’s been a while since I did that, too.  Rollerblading was always one of the very best activities for my “condition,” but skating now feels even better than it did before (except that I’m feeling super out of shape at present!).

Mother’s Day.  Through this whole process, my little boy continues to fuel my smiles, my joy and my positivity.  He brightens my mood when it’s already high and he brings me out of my funks when my emotions get the best of me.  I love my son more than I could ever describe!

I am healed.

 

Coughing is the Worst

February 29, 2016

I used to put coughing, sneezing, laughing and blowing my nose all in the same category of things that are NO good for prolapse…but I’ve definitely decided that coughing is the very worst!

When I blow my nose, I can put myself in a position where I feel pretty darn protected.  (I lean my forearms on a counter, stick my butt out/up and keep my belly relaxed.)

Sneezes are pretty sketchy but they’re relatively rare and they’re over fast.  I try to sit down or grab myself if I have time…which helps.

Of course, who doesn’t like to “belly laugh” as much as possible?
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And– my husband knows better than to try to casually tickle me.

BUT

Coughing is brutal!!

I’ve been dealing with a cold that hasn’t been so bad except for the coughing.  Ugh!  It feels like all my dedicated work with keeping my posture (and therefore pelvic organs) “in check” is undone when I’m forced to cough, cough and cough again.

Every time I cough I know that things aren’t right!  It’s weird because I feel so much better in a lot of ways but yet the pressure from coughing is horrible.  I’ll definitely be thankful once the coughing stops!

For now, I’ll remain peaceful knowing that despite the coughing, I’m still doing fine.  Things could be worse!

I am healed.